What the Color of the Sky Tells You

“The skies are blue today.. It is such a bright day but why can’t I be?” my eyes laid out through my window as the morning came once again through the dark blinds shadowing the four walls in my room. It was the only color that visits, that allows me to count the days I have left before it will go dark again.

I sometimes think, does the sky care, does the sky know?

I brushed off the silly thought, it’s just the sky. It comes and goes.

The sky looks so happy, it makes me feel guilty how I never felt the same. I’m a piece of glass shattered to the core, soon will break again to leave a piece of bitter memory to my loved ones, who I once loved, and who once loved me. It is barely four months since I stopped filling my spoon with food and not being able to move. A slight glimpse of reality would fill my lungs with anxiety making it so hard to breathe- making it so hard to live. My eyes are fine but it is so hard to see the bright side as they said to always look at it but it isn't there. It is just me.

I sometimes wonder why my days never get better, the constant thought that I am not enough that keeps me awake at night sometimes there’s no reason at all. I just find myself staring at the wall. I used to love going out, but I don't know what happened now.

Even when the skies were constantly bright and blue, It was also then that the skies felt they were falling on my shoulder.

Despite having everything I can ever imagine, I still feel like I have nothing. Despite having the most supportive people, I still feel alone

Despite it all... the unknown grief is there.

When it comes, it goes, and it follows.

What does the sky have to tell? does it feel the same too?

I came to check and watch the sky again.. it looks like it is about to rain- it has gone gray.

On that moment, I felt heard.

It seems the sky isn’t constantly great in view. They get dark-they get upset too. blue skies turn to gray the way feelings change, the way that I do.

We have a storm to weather and any bright sky will not change how you should feel. Just like the sky, it goes through certain processes we don't understand but we are going through it the we should be because that is the only way to get through it.

The sky is bright again, we will be too.

We get through the day and wait for the next to come. I think I know what the color of the sky tells you .

If you go tonight or any day now, you will not know what the color of the sky will be and what it will bring and the plans it has for you. blue or gray, it is alright to feel the same any day. you are valid, you will be okay.

The sky will still drop by you.